so thankful

Being unable to sleep can definitely be a problem, especially when you have a very stressful job that requires you to get a good night of sleep. Last night was one of those nights where sleep was just NOT in the cards for me. Last night, as I lay in pain just praying that the pain would go away I suddenly became upset with God. I was upset that I was in so much pain, and that He was choosing not to take that pain away. My thoughts were…”He heals the leapers, raises the dead, and makes the blind see, so…why could my pain not go away for a minute so I can have a sense of relief”.
I learned last night- that in the most painful of circumstances, even when we have no idea why something is happening, He is in control. I can be very stubborn, especially when it comes to pushing away physical pain. I would much rather be in pain than have to go talk to some doctor about where my body hurts, why my body hurts, ect! Anyway, since last night I was unable to sleep, I instead spent that time on my knees. After becoming upset with God I was quickly convicted of how selfish I was being. Who am I to be upset with God? What has He ever done to deserve my anger? Was my pain His fault? To answer those: I am in NO position to be upset with God, He has NEVER done anything to deserve my anger, and of course my pain was NOT his fault. Once I felt the conviction come over me I chose to thank God for everything He had given me. The truth is, I am extremely blessed and even in the midst of pain, I have so much to be thankful for. Example: I have ears to hear, I have a mouth that can worship His love and bring encouragement to others, and I have eyes that can see His beauty and the many things He has blessed me with- so again, what do I have to complain about? NOTHING!
No matter what life throws at us, we have a God who is merciful, mighty and oh-so loving! This morning I read Romans 8:38-39, which says “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” It amazes me how even when we question why, He reveals to us His love. Trials will come, I can pretty much promise you that- BUT, He promises to never leave us or abandon us in those times. If you ask me, that sounds like a good deal to me! Nothing can ever separate us from His love…absolutely NOTHING. That is so refreshing and so encouraging.

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