remain steadfast even when it makes no sense.

Back in 2008 (which feels like forever ago) I started working with behavioral and emotionally disturbed children. While this is not AT ALL what I thought I would be doing, I can honestly say that I wouldn’t change where I am for anything.  I had always dreamed of being a marriage and family counselor- but clearly the Lord had a different (and much better) plan. Working with behavioral challenged children is a daily testing of my patience….and my humanity. No one goes into work each day expecting to get attacked, yelled at, cussed out, and/or disrespected.
It’s definitely not the most glamorous job.
On a daily basis the Lord has to remind me that He has me EXACTLY where I am for His purpose and for His kingdom. I realized recently that I am in <<NO WAY>> equipped in my own power to deal with the many trials that show up in my life (especially at work). However, I do have a Heavenly Father who can (and has) equipped me with every tool I need. While the job that I do has its fair share of ups and downs, I know that the Lord has instilled patience in my heart and compassion towards those who are suffering. I definitely do not have all the answers when it comes to working in other peoples lives. I have learned that in those moments of struggle (not knowing what to say, how to act, or how to fix someones situation) I talk to my Creator. I ask Him to lead my steps, prepare my heart, provide me the patience I need, and to guide my words. I know for a fact that if I tried to rely on myself to help others- they would probably be better off talking to a wall. Its definitely through His Word, His wisdom, and His guidance that I am able to pour truth and wisdom into the lives of so many others. Hebrews 13:20-21 says it so much better than I ever could. It says “Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.”
I mean, can I get an AMEN!?

Last year I was a supervisor over an alternative school, which means all the kids have been kicked out of public school due to negative behaviors. The clients would act out aggressively on a DAILY basis. They were cussing people out, throwing desks, and refusing to do their work. It is stressful! So many days felt like I couldn’t catch a break. I would get one client calm and back on track….and another client would go off. I felt overwhelmed, and I honestly  felt as though I had failed the clients. I wasn’t seeing much progress (and that’s how I determined how I was doing as a counselor). Isn’t that what we do? We allow detours in our lives to dictate our emotions. We allow a small bump in the road to determine our identity and our worth.

We all have different standards for our lives, different plans for where we see ourselves going, and different ideas of who we are. I have learned that trials will come, exhaustion will come, failure will come, and plans will not go as planned…BUT, those things are in no way too much for our Lord to handle. He can handle every bad day (including bad hair days), every heartbreak, every illness, every detour. It is in those moments that He reminds of us His infinite love. It is in those moments that He encourages our spirit, calms our overwhelmed hearts, and teaches us to rely on Him.

It is seriously mind-blowing how loving our Creator truly is. Our lives are busy, and filled with so many different distractions. We can so easily get caught up in our worries and busyness of life that we lose sight of what matters most. No matter how our days play out- it is so important (and crucial) to remain in the presence of God. It is in His presence that He is able to fully equip us for each and every hurdle that we will have to jump throughout the day.

I have definitely learned over the past eight years that completely relying on God to do what I can’t allows Him to work in and through my life. God’s power will enable us to do things that will simply amaze us. Life can be hard, we have ALL learned that at one point or another, but through all the ups and downs of life- remain steadfast in Him. It’s in Him that we will find peace, patience, compassion, forgiveness, strength, mercy, grace, and love!!


“so let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up”. Galatians 6:9

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